All I Want to Do...

I know this like a short amount of time between posts (considering the last one was written last night!), but sometimes things get into my head that I just can't be patient.

And again I must provide a slight disclaimer. This is far more secular of a topic than others before, and I hope that friends shall not be offended by my post...if you are, let me know!

Have you ever wanted to hop in the car with your best friends and just drive...to a lake, the beach, a big city, etc.? Have you ever just wanted to hang out with friends with no structure? Have you ever just wanted to be...rather than following the routine-ness of life?

I have great friends. I really do. They have been awesome the past few years, and we have enjoyed some great times together. But, I can't help but want more. No this is not a plea to my friends to change who they are, nor is it a critique and debasement of their character and personalities (Like I said, I have enjoyed great times with you guys, times I will never forget!). But only a few times in my short independent (after high school) life have I felt like I have just been...well, independent and spontaneous. I have yet to really take a road trip to anywhere with my best friends. UNC Charlotte doesn't have a football team to tailgate for, thus eliminating another opportunity for hang out time. And with the stress of summer school and jobs and the need to support my independent life, I have all but eliminated the opportunities to have a summer that resembles any of the summers in elementary, middle, and high school. So I have always been hoping for more...

And during the school year, and this summer, there have been many times where I have hung out with friends spontaneously. So I shouldn't base my "social" life on the notion that I don't have good friends, nor good times...because, as I said, I have great, awesome friends. I just feel so tied down. Responsibility wasn't supposed to come this fast. The "real world" wasn't supposed to hit this soon. Like most adults say, college is the best time of your life. The idea that they are they best years of my life sure hasn't lived up to its potential. It has been great, and I wouldn't trade these years for anything (I wish I could be a lifetime college student!), but I feel like I haven't taken advantage of my youth. For one thing in high school I never really got to go to sporting events, namely football, because I was in marching band...and while I made great friends there, I have always felt "programmed" for a greater social life. And now that I am in college, there is stuff that some people find to be fun, like clubbing and having keggers, but I find those to be at the bottom of my priority list in having fun. And a lot of my friends are younger than me, making it slightly harder to do some things (yes I mean going to bars and having a couple beers...I am 21 and I feel I am the only one who can say whether I want to drink or not!).

But I guess this is just a moment in my life where I am growing up. I need to adapt. I need to step outside of my friend bubble and meet more people. And I need to pay the same respect to each friend I have. They are all close to me...and I love them like brothers and sisters! And maybe I shouldn't waste my time worrying about life, and more time living my life.

I am 21, and I have many more "young" years to come where I can enjoy my life with friends and family. And who's to say that I can't enjoy life when I am much older? I have a world out there that I want to live and experience. And I have a God who has blessed me with great friends and family to experience it with. So I continue living my life...

As T.I. and Rhianna say: "So live your life...."



** again, I love you guys I call friends! This is definitely not a means by which we should stop hanging out together! Let's continue what we got going...you don't need to fix something that isn't broken!!