Searching for a Title

To be very honest with whoever reads this blog, I am not a great equivocator (that means speaker!). I have a habit of stumbling over my words and thoughts, creating a mish-mashed concoction of words. And blogging is not my forte. I am not a person who can speak to masses, charging or challenging, or pulling great knowledge together to move people into action. I see myself as a worker bee, one who stays within the hive and makes honey, not the bees that leave the nest and get to see the world, and certainly not the Queen Bee (or King Bee in my case!).

With that said, as an introduction, I thought I would look at the title of this blog. Welcome to "The Big Blue!" I am proud of the title, especially after trying like 30 other possible, what I thought were creative titles. Other people have taken those choices, and at the risk of upsetting my pride, I will remain with "The Big Blue" as a bright spot in the creative sector of my brain. (I know there is another "Big Blue" out there...but I remain proud!)

Isn't life the same way? We search for a title to live by, only to realize that it doesn't fit, whether it physically doesn't or mentally we just don't want it to fit. Titles are hard...I still have no idea how writers, musicians, and even our politicians come up with some of the names we are familiar with today. So why do we try to fit under a title?

Our lives are each separate stories, unique to each and every one of us. God made us unique. God is unique. So why do we try to understand who we are, and ultimately who God is by condensing all that is about Him and us into a catchy title that should explain everything or intrigue a "reader" of our lives? Shouldn't the plot be the most interesting part of the story?

My life is definitely not perfect. God continues to rock my world, turning it upside down until I realize that He actually turned me right side up. My plot is writing itself out as God continues to mold me into who He wants me to be.

This blog is a glimpse of my mind, and how my imperfections, doubts, questions, praises, joys, and actions ultimately bring together a grand novel written by God. My story is a story of searching for more, growing more and more insatiable of this world's offerings and wanting more of God's love.

My story is my life. And my life is part of God's ultimate plan. He will use me in ways I would never believe. His story has a happy ending...but right now, I am living in His plot.